In, Out;; Don't forget to breathe

Well i have, saddly, spent the last three days or so hopelessly sick. It's been horrible for the most part, but it has had it's upsides. I spent a decent amount of time on friday doing some, how should i put it, "soul searching". I've learned a lot of things about myself, and come to realize that even some of my closest friends don't know me that well.

It was a hard thing to do and face, but it was the best thing i could have done and i feel so much better. I feel like i know myself better, and i'm a lot more comfortable in my own skin. I think everybody needs to take some time to sit down and face the things they don't want to. Bottling it inside is no good. And you can't expect everyone else to fix your problems for you, you have to face them yourself.

Other than realizing who i really am, my weekend has been uneventful. Thankfully i'm beginning to feel better now, and i will have no problem going to school tomorrow. I definitely missed seeing my friends this weekend, and am looking very forward to seeing them tomorrow. I'm also incredibly thankful to be feeling better. It was not a good weekend for me.

Also, over the weekend, i've really gained my inspiration back. The story i'm currently writing, Running from Demons, has gained a very special place in my heart. It's the first story i've written that flows the way i want it to and actually seems believable. I really really love it, and i think it has amazing potential. I think i am actually going to finish this story, 100%, all the way to the last chapter. And that thought makes me feel amazing.

I've never kept with a story till the very end. I always lose inspiration. But not this time. I can just feel it, this is it. Maybe this can be the one that i actually get somewhere with. Because I want nothing more than to get a book published. One of my life's goals, for sure.

Well, i guess I have nothing else really left to say. So back to another list of goals;;
1. Finish all my homework before class tomorrow
2. Continue thinking of witty titles
3. Actually update this thing
4. Write at least two chapters of my book every week
5. Open up and be the real me with my friends
6. Don't be afraid to get hurt;; it'll only make me stronger
7. Stop being sick!